One minute in the haven, another in the hell

Sometimes people get upset, angry and can't find ways to describe something. Sometimes people can't find way to control yourself and let everything that is perfect turn to nightmare. One minute you're in the haven, another you're in the hell. I've learned two things about the people I love and I hate. Let's start with whom I hate. They can give me just one kind of feelings: anger, discontent, disgust and even I can get upset with them. But they do not affect me so much, because after a while they become insignificant and the feelings are gone as well as its mediocrity.
Now whom I love is different. They are able to provide me with the two sets of feelings: the negatives and positives. They can give me joy in a minute, so how they can give me rabies in another. They can make me proud of them, so how they can make me get upset with them. and the worst? Everything can happen simultaneously, in a sudden, you never know. And yes, it affects me, because as I said, I love them. Nothing makes me sadder than seeing someone so angry because of me, it kills me so much inside. You can give your heart to them, you trusted them so much! But depending on the situation, they may return it broken, after all, there wasn't a guarantee, was there ? They can do this because they want to or not. So we try, we do everything we can, we bleed inside. Just for one more smile, one more moment happy, because we don't have these thing anymore, not for a long, long time. And when it finally finish, we just have two ways to stays: or we just die or we just stay alive. And we just can realize which of those you chose, when you're finally in the end, when you've suffered enough, or when you could not stand the pressure.

Written by: Tatiii (me) :)